Hello again, have you missed me?

I’ve been meaning to get in touch, but somehow,

I haven’t quite felt able.

I hope you understand.

I’ve had so little good news to share.

I’ve been unhappy

And you’ve seemed so very far away.

I wonder sometimes

What would have happened

If I’d stayed on any road long enough

To arrive at its terminus.

Would I have been happy there

Or have found only a slightly different

Shade of unfulfillment?

I’ve grown old and pot-bellied,

Sour, corrupt, bald, and drunk

And you ask why I don’t call on you?

There was a time I felt I deserved you

And we spent each day in each other’s arms.

Look at me now! Look at what I’ve become!

I daren’t face you.

I had great plans, or rather, I had great aspirations.

No plans, only aspirations, a daydream perhaps,

Just a gauzy daydream.